TOGETHER FOREVER

Never Two

Never Two

I thought I saw you once

Buying bread in the market

Tilting your head slightly

As you brushed

Your bronze tangled tresses

Across the all-seeing mirror

Of your delicate brow

Soft and damp

Sticky from the heavy heat

Of the late summer evening

Only to realise

That it wasn't you at all

My stomach fell to the floor

With the dawning realisation

That your incomparable beauty

Was lost to me once more

Returning to its usual hiding place

Behind the black velvet curtains

Of my forsaken hopes

And relentless longings

Sinking into the cauldron

Of my holy desire

For your face

Your essence

And undeniable perfection

But I know I will find you one day

I am sure of it

We will be together

I thought I heard you singing one night

Like an angel in my dreams

Drowning out my woes

Healing every wound

I had ever stumbled across

Mending my brokenness

And as I bathed in the soft tones

Of your ethereal voice

Resonating balm - like

Through my fractured psyche

I was restored to a fullness

Previously unknown

Absorbed in an ocean of gratitude

Basking in the presence

Of an attainable divine order

Where everything happens as it should

Bringing harmony, alignment and love

Into my divided life

But yet again, you left me

Ushered away, phantom-like

With the first light of dawn

Betraying the sweet communion

Of our sacred tryst

The emptiness was unbearable

When I awoke

I wanted to be with you forever

And over the years

In the midst of mundane existence

Between the ever-morphing hours

Of sleep and wakefulness

I often had an inkling

That you were watching over me

Perched invisibly upon my shoulders

Particularly during the shallows of my days

When I was wandering, unhinged

Destitute of myself

Lost without a compass

Dropped in the desert of my hopes

Knowing nothing at all

No future path before me

Empty of the next moment

Even forgetting my hunger for you

But at the same time

Remembering

That with one single glance

In my direction

You could light my way home

I wondered if I would ever see you again

As I peered through the blinkered slits

Of my deprived existence

Seeing only the shrunken outline

Of a shapeless landscape

That seemed to stretch out forever

Emptiness was my only companion

Hovering like a guest at my own wake

Pouring everything

Into the bottomless void of nothingness

With nowhere else to go

But here

And just when all hope of finding you

Was completely exhausted

Like a wave that had disappeared

Into dry sand

Irretrievably dissolved forever

You returned to me

Silently, without fuss or fanfare

Unannounced, yet clear as day

You were here

And so was I

Fully present, we faced the other

Honestly, and for the first time

Free of expectation or need

And that is when we finally met

Just as we are

In our entirety

I surrendered to your touch

Wholeheartedly reciprocating

Your immortal embrace

Completely sating

My aching desire for you

Just like a miracle in a movie

My search was over

My dream realised

Fully meeting

The other half of my soul

Restored and remembered

Reunited in the wholeness

That was never two

Never separate

Time and space dissolved

And our chalice did floweth over

Immersed in the infinite

And eternal communion

Of all existence

I will never look for you again

My love

Because I know it is not possible

For you to leave me.

What I was looking for was always present

Never missing in the first place

For I see we are One

You and I

Permanently residing

In the heart we both share